♥ Audrina's Story.

♥ Audrina's Story .

-Audrina Ng- -25th April 1989-
-Barely legal, 20 yrs old-
-Tampines North Pri Sch-
-Pasir Ris Sec Sch Chinese Orchestra-
-Temasek Polytechnic Business IT-

*M.A.C.H.Y*
*Prss 4e7 '05*
*TP BIT 1E05 '07*
*my BIT babes (deirdre, rui xin & jenny)*
*Pink and Red roses*
*Sleep*
*Shopping*
*Strawberry Milk Shake*
*Hanging out with my BIT friends*

>Cigarettes smell<
>things losing control<
>backstabbers<
>hyporcrite<

~~~A driving license~~~
~~~$$ to upgrade my retarded lap-top!!!~~~
~New highlight for my hair~
~A new handbag~
~A new pair of shoes~
~More top~
~More bottom~
~Travel around the world aft graduate~
~Lotz and Lotz of $$$$$$~

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

<=GONGDUMBSHABEN=>
*Deirdre aka Sha Sha*
*JNeez aka Dumb Dumb*
*Rui Xin aka Ben Ben*

<=BIT peeps=>
*BIT IG*
*Chris*
*Debbie*
*Farah*
*Iqmalia*
*Jayne*
*Jeremy Lim*
*Jessie*
*John*
*Kristen*
*Nura*
*Nuraini*
*Taufiq*
*Wang Zai (Joshua)*
*Xue Ping*

<=BIT Freshies=>
*Qian Hui (junior)*
*Qing Long*
*Rena (junior)*
*Xiu Hui (junior)

<=TP peeps=>
*Han Peng*
*Lestari*
*Qian Yu*
*Serene (psychology)*

<=M.A.C.H (PRSS)=>
*m.a.Cheryl.h*
*m.a.c.Hui Min*
*Michelle.a.c.h*

<=PRSS peeps=>
*Kingston*
*Joshua*
*PRSS CO*
*PRSSCO Percussion*
*Rena*
*Shiqi*
*Si Han*
*mr Wong Wei Long*
*Xin Er*
*Yan Ting*
*Zhiyi*

<=PRSS CO seniors=>
*Chang Yu*
*Eddie*
*Hailing*
*Hui Lin*
*Sharyl*
*Yi Ling*

<=PRSS CO juniors=>
*Brian*
*Emily(Perc)*
*Hui Rong*
*Kok Peng*
*Mei Hui*
*Mei Zhen*
*Qianhui*
*Wan Zhuang*
*Xuan Hui*
*Yan Peng*

<=TNPS cum PRSS peeps=>
*Cindy*
*DiXoN*

<=TNPS peeps=>
*Guo Qiang*
*Michelle Kong*

<=Chinese Orchestra Friends=>
*Jeremy(Perc)*
*Raymond*
*Wei Ming*

<=Kayaking=>
*Bernard*

<=Celebrities=>
*Felicia Chin*
*Show Luo Zhi Xiang 羅志祥*
*SS501*

<=Favourite Blog=>
Ban Ban
Stickgal

<=Shopping Time=>
Amber of Autumn
Blessed Beau
Dainty Romance
Elegantpalace Bags
Esprit 1978
Fashion House
Fast Deal Right Now
Female Beauty (Masks)
Just Shop
Love Shopping Shopping
My Pulchritude
Online Pasar Malam
Princess Closet
Princess In Style
Shoppholic
Shopaholic-area
Thgirls Blogshop
Tiramiss You
Uniquely Us
Vintage Heroine

<=Designer=>
Michelle

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Am I able to give up on this relationship?

I'm feeling puzzled and lost now...I told myself that I hafta hold firm with my stand but the other part of me is telling me that I can't bear to leave him.

Why am I feeling it this way? I'm really lost now. A relationship that can last for almost 4 years isn't easy. These 4 years let me see his true self and also going through a lot of obstacles and hardship.

If a guy shows his violent side to you even before he marries you....is he gonna be a good husband or will he change for you?

If a guy keep getting loan from you, is he a trust able husband who will really support you financially and give you happiness or he is just treating you as an atm machine?

If a guy is disrespectful to elders, is he gonna be a filial son-in-law or even a husband who is caring for you?

If a guy who doesn't know how to finance his own money, can he be a husband who will be able to give me happiness or just bring me misery for paying his debts if he has any?

If a guy doesn't know the importance of his gf, will he even treat his wife well?

These questions has been with me for the past 4 years. What am I gonna do? I'm really lost now. Some point of time, I did want to give up because there were a few times when he get really over the board e.g. getting the chopper to cut the telephone line, kick my washing machine till there's a dent at the side, throwing the plastic plate and break into pieces, throwing my adapter into pieces too....at that point, I really wanted to give up on this relationship but I'm always the one who initiate to keep this relationship.

It sounds rather contradicting, but...that's what i'm feeling right now. I really wanna give a thought for my happiness and future because I don't wanna regret in future and let my mum sad.

I talked to my mum these few days and what she has been telling all these years actually is true. In the past, I strongly believe he will change and be a better guy for me. Now, I totally understand and believe what my mum say.

I always tot my mum was just being bias over him. This time round, it has reached my limit when he asked me to for loan of $300 when he actually still owe me $110.

I asked for a 1 week cooling period, and these 2 days I've been sorting out my thoughts. There are a lot of things to settle e.g. like stuff we agreed to pay half to share (external hard disk etc). There so many problems here and there and I really don't know how to face it.

Today he smsed me and told me that he's gonna buy the external hard disk but the problem is there are photos inside, and he said he's ok to meet me on fri to transfer the photos to my laptop. BUT I don't have the courage to face him because I don't know how...haiz

But is that an indication that this relationship is ending? My mind is in total blank. I don't know what to do now. Just hope everything's gonna be over asap.

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Ok, whenever I started writing blog, it means...I really wanna write abt smth.

I'm supposed to be doing BSIT journal, and yet here I am blogging becoz I really dun feel like doing YET i still hafta do it. This is life.

This few days has been quite WOW and UNBELIEVABLE because made new friends that I wouldn't expect to make. Lol!!! And not even mentioning hanging out.

Life is really unpredictable...what should I say? Hmm...UNPREDICTABLE. Haha ok...I'm like over here repeating myself for no reason.

Oh, I tot that smth will happen, ended up is all of us THINK TOO MUCH and only one person is right all the while. Ok...I shall trust my feeling and 6th sense. I just hope that this person really has the determination in doing that thing.

Ok and I'm going Malaysia soon...WHOA FINALLY!!! Lol it's been like SO DAMN LONG that I go Malaysia with my relatives and cousins. Coolz!!! I love to hang out with my cousins. They're really really really nice to me =P Simply love them man!

Sia la, bf go genting tml sia. Lol...but not really keen in going Genting by the way. Haha....but sian is I'm stucked here in Singapore to finish up my assignments...lol!!! Crazy shit.

*yawn* k la, i dunno wat to write alr, and I caught a cold sia...my throat is not feeling well -.- Sianz!!!

3 words , 8 letters , 1 meaning . I LOVE YOU <3

Wednesday, January 06, 2010