♥ Audrina's Story .
Flying off in 12 hrs.........
wanna say thanks....although maybe u're not referring to me in ur msn nick, i'll take it as it is for me. Maybe u're saying bye to me or maybe u're not....still, thanks. Really need tat very much from a friend whom I'm really concerned...
Hope you're doing fine...
P.S. Raisin jia you and cheer up!!!!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Haiz, i'm going vietnam soon...I wonder how am i going to get used to it. Coz i'm used to talking on the phone every night alr...then i wondering how...........and also sms..................
Haiz...........anyway I had lotz of fun last night. Thanks. =) Never had such fun time without any worries for very long alr. Think I should really just live and move on with my life w/o any worries. Time to really really really move on and stop thinking much of other stuff that will be bothering me. Whether it'll affect me or not, i juz hope things will be settled asap. Not hurting any1 of coz.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
I finally booked my chalet le. Yes!!!
Friday, March 26, 2010
2010 is definitely not my year. So many things have arised since the start of the year.
What now? My cousin is one stupid #%$# i dunno how to describe him. Can't he just grow up and think for the family?
Firstly, he always skipped school, played truant, not attending lessons, tricked my grandma by wearing uniform, but not to school, to other places to hang around. So now a dropped-out with no secondary school certification.
Secondly, mixed around with the wrong people, smoke and on drugs. Wth is wrong wif you la seriously? And you're not even 18 at that time.
Thirdly, we thought that u'll change once u're in Singapore, work and will live a normal life. Ended up, you went to JB and bring in cigarette to SG and get caught because you're still under 18 because your birthday is not over. So....my another cousin have to bail you out.
Haiz when will you ever wake up? You've created the mess such that the whole family is so worried of you, tat we really dunno wat to do wif you?
I already had enough things for me to worry, your older sisters are all worried of you, they having financial problem already because they come here to work too and have to send money back home to grandma...and here in SG tot that u'll become a good person -.- Wat's so good about cigarette that you buy from malaysia and bring it in to SG?! You broke your sisters' heart because of cigarette. "Good Job!"
I'm still wondering how can you spend $50 in 2 days when you spend the whole day working....what exactly did you do with the $50.....I'm really wondering....
WHY IS THERE SO MANY BAD THINGS HAPPENING AROUND ME??? I'm really tired....
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Why so many things and problems piling up at the same time?
I hope I can have a peaceful mind when I'm away to Vietnam.
At first, I tot things are going well, but it seems like...it's complicated as it seems....
Seriously, not as easy as it seems...I juz hope that all these probs can be gone so that I can focus...on one thing.
I can't really multi-task, one thing at a time.
Oh no, I still hafta do a powerpoint slide for Ms Chong about Singapore culture for the Vietnam Study trip during the university exchange program. Haiz...back to work!!!
Monday, March 22, 2010
I looked at ur photos, a lot of qns popped into my head....
how are you doing now? I'm so sorry that i hurt you but it's the best solution i guess....
you seems to have slim down a lot....from the photos are i saw from fb. I think I really hurt you very badly but I didn't mean to. I think it's best that we two move on and not cling on to this relationship coz eventually it won't turn out well. Pressure from all sides and factors really made me tired of holding u back.
You told me before that if I want to give up on this relationship, I need to tell you so that we both can move on. I did, but seems like you find it difficult to do so. I know you have been blaming me for giving up on this relationship is it because of other courtships or i'm in love with another guy. It is not and I've told you the reasons several times but you didn't believe it.
That day you smsed me, I nv tell u the answer straightaway is becoz I don't want you to move around blindly like a lost sheep. I'm not a girl that is worth for you to do this. I don't deserve it. I was really touched when you told me you've started working already. But...I don't want you to work juz to win my heart back or juz to prove that you are hardworking and not lazy. What's all in the past, has passed. I really hope you can focus on your studies and graduate. You need to find a stable and well-paid job with this certification. You know very well.
I hope you can move on already because I am doing it now. Trying to.....really and ya, actually sometimes I find that I am not compatible to you coz sometimes you compare urself with me, I am really lousy and stupid. I am a person who cannot study well but you can. You can get in NTU, I can't. You have a brighter future, I maybe dun have. You are more delligent than me, I am lazier. You are smarter indeed. Then why did you like me in the first place when we were together you confessed that you find me stupid when you know about my o-level results.
Nevertheless, we shared happy and sad memories during our 4 years relationship. I really hope that you can find a better girl....a much much much better girl than me. Wish you all the best in your future endeavours. Good luck in your studies.
Actually I don't know you can read all these. But I didn't purposely type all these for you to read. Is juz that I feel like saying but nowhere to say, so I post it in the blog.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
I've been feeling better nowadays....and had a good laugh today. I'm feeling much much better and not so stressful alr. Coz i've submitted the doc to SIM..hehe cleared...finally haha
Awww so sad tml need to go work, but if i dun go work, money keep going out and not coming in...so ya lo...endure and work.
Hehez can't wait for sunday to come....gonna be a crazy weekend again. =) And more crazier thing is, there are 3 birthday parties i need to attend...lolz....crazy as it sound but luckily 2 are at the same area, tanah merah then my jie mei's chalet is at aloha loyang. Whoa think gonna take cab liao. $$$$$$$ The $30 i earn can use it for cab fare liao....*sigh*
Ahhhh....i still can't help fanning myself from time to time....seirously hot....
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Oh well, another thing to trouble sia....my birthday party..sian i need NTUC card...who is a member? Whoa got a lot of things to settle too...Hmmmmm
Friday, March 19, 2010
Sorry for all the over-sensitive stuff and over-think matters... I'm really over-sensitive. Oh well....ignore what I've said earlier... =D
Friday, March 19, 2010
Lately, a lot of things happened.
Actually I didn't know these things will turn out to be like that. I didn't expect this thing will happen to me too. This is very dramatic and I tot this will only happen in drama. I really hope things won't turn out to be a nightmare.
I juz hope u 2 will still be the same like the past. Seriously...I don't want anything bad to happen...please. I'm juz telling whoever it may concern through my blog. I don't want anything to turn out violent or something that may spark off to things that I don't dare to imagine.
Please resolve this thing in a peaceful way. Please....*sigh*
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Have I move on? I don't know...the answer is still unknown.
So, I hope all dun think so much. I just wanna enjoy my life when I'm single. Please let me do my stuff and decide on my life. Please don't use salt to rub on my wound....coz I dun wanna be stress. Rmb, a stress-free year. Yup. I shall do that. After a good sleep ytd, I realised, why should I bother about others's commentz...juz move on la....dun care, dun bother, be myself...I'm not gonna change myself juz becoz of those...this is my character, my personality. Like it or not, tat's ur choice.
It's grad night...but no excitement actually though spent a lot of money on it. Juz displeased with things that are going on. And...seating arrangment is juz...crap
Friday, March 05, 2010
烦...
it's so hard to please everyone...and I'm really tired of all these
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Ok, I went to play paintball with Gavin and his unit mate. It was kinda awkward at first coz 9 of 'em are guys and I'm the only girl. The ratio of it is like 9:1. Lolz....seriously, but ok la, they're really nice people. They also dun dare to do aniting funny to me la coz afterall, I'm still Gavin's friend.
Anyway, Paintball was fun la...but when kanna eat or splashed by paintball, really no joke. I see all the guys kanna hit and got swollen all over the body. No joke....lol as for me, think becoz I'm a girl, they dun dare to really aim me, so all I got was small cuts....juz surface cuts. So ok la...haha isn't that bad....juz that I seirously dun haf the courage to shoot coz I really scared hit by them.
Hahaz...the facilitators there, apparently 3 of 'em guys...are really nice ppl too. Damn friendly and funny. Lolz...and becoz I'm the girl, one of the facilitators give me extra paintballs...but I didn't finish. Haha....Lolz...luckily during briefing, the facilitators will joke a bit here and there, if not will feel a bit bored. Anyway during the whole thing, only Gavin and Wei Jie or Wen Jie (can't really rmb his name now...) talk to me. So next time, seriously muz tag a girl along lo...if not will feel awkward...haha
Thanks Gavin for the game. =D Now got experience in playing paintball liao, shall psycho raisin and the rest go play. Hehez but hor, the place seriously is like a ghost town sia....damn ulu
Monday, March 01, 2010
